I’ll try to get a better quality video up. Anyway this is a deleted prayer :)
I JUST HAD TO PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN MYSELF IN ORDER NOT TO SCREAM. DO YOU SEE WHAT THIS IS? NO, SERIOUSLY, OH MY FUCKING GOD.
- Dean’s insistence in praying to Cas was featured super explicitly about 298765748 times in s8
- Dean and Cas’s relationship is shown as very close and intimate and the more scenes like this we get tHE MORE INTIMATE AND CLOSE IT LOOKS
- He started every sentence with “I need”. DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW HUGE THIS IS FOR DEAN. IT’S ONE OF THE BIGGEST CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT STEPS HE’S EVER TAKEN. Actually ALLOWING HIMSELF TO NEED SOMETHING. FOR HIMSELF. AND NOT JUST ANYTHING OR ANYONE, *CAS*. Cas, one of the biggest sources of Dean’s masochistic guilt-tripping because he feels responsible for Cas’s downward spiral. Cas, whom Dean would have to do so much work convincing himself he actually deserves. AND HE’S DOING IT. HE’S DOING THAT WORK. He admits to himself that he needs Cas and that he deserves him and that THIS, whatever it is, is something they need and the way they should be AND HE’S VERBALIZING IT, THAT IS SO BLOODY IMPORTANT I CAN’T EVEN.
I’M DONE, I’M SO DONE, I’M OUT OF WORDS OVER HERE